A great book (as
fantasy author Kelly Link puts it) “[lights] up the readerly brain and the
writerly nerves.” A great book (I say) kindles magic fire in the imagination
and sets the heart and mind ablaze. A great book does what the best drugs are
supposed to do; liberates consciousness from the conventional, opens up new
worlds; flings wide the doors of perception (and, yes, the reference to Aldous Huxley
and Jim Morrison is intentional); sets an unapologetic match to everything you ever
thought you knew about reading, about writing, about dreaming, about life
itself.
British author Jonathan
Kemp’s twentysix is a great book.
The twenty-six
very-short stories in this debut solo collection of m/m erotica are ostensibly
arranged, as the title suggests, like a child’s alphabet, but with decidedly mature
literary ambitions, and an undeniably grownup sexual sensibility. The language
is beyond impressive, though Kemp consciously expends a great deal of it to
lament the very inadequacies of language, the impotence of mere words confronting
the sublime nexus of thought and sensation, as in this passage from S:
There
are places only the night knows, places only shadows can show us. The city
wears a different face when darkness falls, a face I prefer. I walk the
occluded streets looking for something, looking for something, looking for
something. A knowledge of the shadow that eats away at logic, creating patterns
far brighter than I can bear; patterns that burn at the temperature of wanting.
It traces its way through my veins, this wanting, finding solace only when I
fall and feast . . . This map I draw with the tip of my tongue takes refuge in
a book of dreams. Forgive me for not having the words to describe it, this
place in which I dwell. I have tried, I have tried. I have drenched myself in
words and sensations, seeking a way to make them speak to one another. This is
all I have to offer.
The
body wants what it wants. The chaos of the body’s wants—as we know— will never surrender
itself to language, can never succumb to reason, even if, even if, even if it
wanted to—which it never will.
Yet,
Kemp is keenly aware of the limitations society itself imposes on language, and,
by extension, on the expression of genuine emotion, muting the honest,
full-throated cry of passion, love, lust, desire, joy:
In this society I live in, everyone
dreams of being able to speak like this. But it really isn’t possible to speak
like this in our society. If sexuality has a voice, it has yet to find it.
Sex happens easily
here. These pages teem with a deliciously explicit, celebratory sensuality,
restless and unregretted. There’s a frank earthiness to Kemp’s descriptions.
His characters are mostly urban, working class blokes, cruising dirty streets
and cheap dives in search of connection, perpetually longing (as Freddy Mercury
sang) to break free.
When
he is naked I notice something I had not seen in the club. Now, in the grey
daylight that breaks through the white sheet hung up against the window, I can
see the letters standing out in legible scars across his hairless chest.
D-E-N-I-A-L. For the briefest moment I love this wounded man/boy in whose eyes
I see the recognisable burn of drugs and sex and hunger. He shines with a lost
need, a lonely, greedy, fucked-up cock-sure need and we fall against each other
and onto that grimy mattress. We lie head to toe, feeding on each other’s
cocks. I occupy every last space available for this experience, I inhabit this
feeling of pleasure, wanting it never to end. And that word, DENIAL, plays across
the black expanse of my consciousness, repeats and repeats like a broken
record, and I want to know what it means, why is it there, who did it to him,
or did he do it to himself?
Though the narrator may
at times seem to channel Bataille and Barthes as he reflects on broad and lofty
themes, he does not look away from the seamier vision of life as actually
lived, embracing it in all its pungant banality and deep fractal chaos. Sometimes
it seems possible to choke on this wild surfeit of language, this sumptuous
banquet of experience, as one might gag while joyously deep throating a
magnificent cock.
I
am giving birth to pleasure, to submission, to the destruction of my ‘self’; I
am enabling the body to fragment, and the fragments to circle around the
central column of a destabilised subjectivity, like gulls riding a thermal. I
am coaxing that tricky little muscle to do something it doesn’t want to do. I
am dominating myself, sodomising myself, raping my body’s own desire for unity,
storming the citadel of my sovereignty with the battering ram of madness.
Jonathan Kemp’s twentysix is emphatically, ardently, passionately recommended!
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